Re: The devil has no hold on a righteous man.

Thank you for reminding me of this very important point, and for your kind words.

The most common justification voices have been give me, from day one, for doing this to me, is that it´s all bull shit, that they are joking. This afternoon, on an airplane I was watching a program called Just For Gags presenting pranks done to strangers. Voices were commenting that this is what they are doing to me too. Of course, its a noncense. Cercumstances are uncomperable in magnitude and duration of the insult.

On a number of occasions these voices claimed that they are punishing me, supposedly for some terrible sins. They never present any evidence, though, to substantiate their judgement. The closest they ever get to have any substance is when they try to make me feel quilty at times when I contemplate a particular decision, and for a moment have a less than most righteous alternative come to mind. More often they try to convince me that I have dirty intentions, perverting my actual thoughts. For example, when I momentarily admire a beauty of passing by woman, in a way not much different I would admire a beauty of flower or a butterfly, they blame me that I´m thinking about sex. Not that is particularly terrible if one were to make a mental note that someone in their vison field is sexy (vs. stocking, or God-forbid considering a rape), but the point is, they continuously accuse me with great insult of some very human tendencies, even when there´s none. Frequently, they just call me stupid, greedy, %¤#&!§-, cruel, etc without any ground at all. The only actually true accusations have to do with my bing courteous (i.e. saying thank you) and, since they came into my life, not enjoying whatever I am doing at the moment, which of course they make hardly possible.

Giving them credance and trying to find a sin in me by reviewing my past actions with the most critical eye and accepting their judgement of me using fruits of my own self-examination, have done a lot of harm to my situation in the early days of this affliction. I haven´t always been perfect. I was, and to some extend still am, ignorant. But this I can honestly say, I tried to be best man I could in any cercumstances, seeked the truth and educated those near me, often to my own detriment, of the more honest, compassionate and loving ways of looking at the picture. I gave these demons way too much power in the early days by accepting them as some karmic cleansers from God.

It was a great relief to recently find out that in Christ all sins are forgiven. It makes perfect sence to me that this is how a good and loving Heavenly Father, as I belive God is, would feel about his children. Jesus freeing us of our sins, including collective and ancestoral, I think, is essential to understanding Christianity, a key aspect of Christ´s mission I missed in prior cursory review of this religion. I so much more fully appreciate it now.

A couple of days ago, with great delight I was able to enlighten others with this truth, when someone in a group conversation, in ignorance, almost discredited Christianity, by blaiming a Christian establishment for stating that unbelievers go to hell, even some good people who´ve never had an opportunity to hear the message of the New Testament, such as indiginous people of the jungle. It´s a commont accusation against Christianity. It´s fallacy is clear to me now. I am looking forward to finding more gems of truth as I am giving a much closer look at the Word of God.


Peace.