Re: Books you can read to begin your journey to be CLEAN of these fowl things!

Dear phxvalleygirl,

Thank you for your well put arguments well substantiated by relevant verses. Your faith in God and His word as expressed in the Bible is obviously very strong and thus highly encouraging. Thank you also for the helpful resources. I will dive into the study of God´s Law immediatelly. I´ve already ordered the bible, the commentary and several related books. The books you suggested seem very good and also the sites.

I´ve already started daily prayer and several times have gone through deliverance process outlined in Neil T. Anderson´s book: Winning Spiritual Warfare. These entities are keep trying to convince me that it´s bull shit, similar as with my pursuing other spiritual techniques, but with more passion, quite obviously. They claim that I am a coward for calling out to a divine authority for help. I know it´s a rediculous and desparate strategy to derail me from reconnecting with God. They also try to make me feel quilty by turning biblical morrals against me. For example, when I consider the ways to cleanse myself of these bastards and also to stop the people (possibly Satanists) who got me into this trouble, the voices say that I am judging them, as if I am doing something terrible. I find this highly rediculous considering the amount of unfounded judgement and insults I get from them every day, not one hour passes without it.

Nevertheless, on the subject of forgiveness which you recommend, should I also extend it to my tourmentors in every moment as they are tourturing me. I understand Jesus prayed on the cross for the very people who´ve just inflicted great pain on him, but was it also relevant to the demons and the Satan ultimatelly responsible for the suffering? In my, I think well justified, anger, I cursed my tourmentors, and also called them names. I realize some of it is retaliatory, but it does offer me some sence of empowerment, even if only temporary. Was I wrong to do so and should I therefore repent? If so how, and what attitude should I adopt instead? Perheps it is not very enlightened of me for wanting a fair judgement to be done, but I think all that is good will benefit if evil is punished. I think evil must not only be resisted but actually fought. Am I wrong on this? By the way, my feeling toward people who´ve harmend due to ignorance is different. I pray that they understand the consequances of their irrisponsible actions and be lead to truth.

I am still looking for an exorsist. Any suggestions on going about this task?
I am in New York area right now, will be South California (where this happened) later this year.

Thank you again.

Peace.