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8/3/14: Nothing has changed
My daily journey toward a healthier lifestyle, a happier life and finding peace in my own world.
Date: 8/4/2014 2:53:32 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1293 times Sunday, August 3, 2014
“Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.” ~ Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Crime and Punishment
Same old, same old life. Nothing has changed from yesterday except I am reading, watching PBS and eating good food. I haven't really worked toward any goals, which I really should but I am just not motivated to do anything. I watched TV most of the day and took several naps. I couldn't really go anywhere, since I had to pay out $360 this week ($310 for my lot rent and & 50.00 for my cell phone) I did end up going to the grocery store and picking up $25.00 worth of food (minus $1.99 for a strip of watercolors. I thought it might help me get more creative and a bit more motivated)
This is the food that I bought:
Two bottles of Sparking Ice: $1.00 a piece
Arnold Palmer Half and Half ice tea: $0.77
A pint of blueberries: $1.00
Bacon Wrapped Jalapenos:$6.92
Two Cheddar and Bacon Beef patties: $4.55
Two small yellow Squash and two small zucchini: $1.59
A clam shell of mixed grilling veggies: $1.99
One tomato: $0.99
Two jars of Baby food (apples and apple cherry): $0.62 a piece
I would have gotten more corn, as on Saturday I only got 4 ears of corn, as I didn't think I would eat the 4 ears so quickly. It was really good with a bit of butter and some Cajun spice sprinkled on it. Getting the corn was about 10 or 12 for a $1.00. I haven't had corn on the cob in a long time, so I didn't know I would enjoy it so much. I will have to eat more it it. I was hesitate in getting any since the New Attorney said that eating corn was practically useless, as it has no nutritional valve. But I looked it up and it does!!
This what I found on http://www.whfoods.com/genpage.php?tname=foodspice&dbid=90
What's New and Beneficial about Corn
You can get health-supportive antioxidant benefits from all varieties of corn, including white, yellow, blue, purple and red corn. But recent research has shown the antioxidant benefits from different varieties of corn actually come from different combinations of phytonutrients. In the case of yellow corn, it's the antioxidant carotenoids leading the way, with especially high concentrations of lutein and zeaxanthin. In the case of blue corn, it's the anthocyanins. There's one particular hydroxybenzoic acid in purple corn—protocatechuic acid—that's also been recently linked to the strong antioxidant activity in this corn variety.
In research on carotenoid antioxidants in food, there has been ongoing debate over the availability of all carotenoids in any particular food if one or two specific carotenoids are present in unusually high amounts. Because yellow corn is a high-carotenoid food that contains highly differing amounts of individual carotenoids, researchers have long wondered whether it is possible to get health benefits from all of the carotenoids in yellow corn when their concentrations are sometimes so different. In yellow cornmeal, the carotenoids lutein and zeaxanthin fall into the high concentration category and reach a level of 1,355 micrograms per 100 grams. That level is nearly 14 times as high as the level of beta-carotene (97 micrograms per 100 grams). But thanks to recent research, we now know that absorption of beta-carotene from yellow cornmeal is only mildly compromised by the high levels of lutein and zeaxanthin in the cornmeal. In other words, in terms of carotenoid nourishment, we appear to get health benefits from all of corn's diverse carotenoids!
We correctly think about corn as a good source of fiber. Corn is a food that gives us plenty of chewing satisfaction, and its high ratio of insoluble-to-soluble fiber is partly the reason. Past researchers have not been clear, however, about the ability of corn fiber to nourish our lower digestive tract. When you look at foods as a whole, they contain many different types of fiber, and when certain types of fiber reach the lower part of our large intestine (especially certain types of soluble fiber) they can be metabolized by intestinal bacteria into short chain fatty acids (SCFAs). This process not only helps support healthy populations of friendly bacteria in our large intestine, but also provides a direct supply of energy (in the form of SCFAs) to the cells that line our large intestine. With this benefit of this extra SCFA energy supply, our intestinal cells can stay healthier and function at a lower risk of becoming cancerous. Recent research has shown that corn can support the growth of friendly bacteria in our large intestine and can also be transformed by these bacteria into SCFAs. These SCFAs can supply energy to our intestinal cells and thereby help lower our risk of colon cancer. The amount of corn fiber analyzed in recent studies has been relatively high at 12 grams per day. That's the same amount provided by about 2.5 cups of fresh corn. While that amount might be more than you would consume at a single meal, it's an amount that you might easily consume over the course of several days. We suspect that future research will demonstrate the risk-reducing effects of smaller amounts of corn consumed over a longer period of time.
I am trying to eat more and more fresh veggies in my diet, as I really can't afford to buy junk food. (Yes, I still do, as I bought two bags of potato chips on Thursday for two for $5.00. And I ate them mostly when I was reading my books. It is a bad snack habit.) I have to say I haven't bought any sugary snacks like candy bars, donuts or ice cream. I have found myself craving fresh fruit, so it is a start to a better way of life with making better choices.
I bought the baby food, because I like to use the little jars for things in my crafts (when I craft). I need a new jar to put water in for using my water colors. I did paint a little while I waited for my dinner to get done. It was a simple pencil drawing of a tiger stripped cat, painted in purple stripes and an orange body. I can't say I was really happy with it, but it has been so long since I have painted, that I am very rusty. I used to paint almost every day as a teenager and a young adult. Sigh. Another thing about hating my life. My life is so empty with any enjoyment.
I talked to my mother a bit about my depression on Saturday. She said she knew something was up, and she hasn't pressured me, as she knows I am trying to working things out myself. She doesn't want to push me in a direction that I don't want to do. She told me that she read something on Facebook about When Native American medicine men talk to the sick, they usually ask three questions: When was the last time you sang? When was the last time you danced? When was the last time you told your story? My mother said they are five questions they ask, but I can only remember three of them. I told her I haven't danced in a very long time. I used to dance and listen to music everyday when I was in my 20's. I don't sing anymore. Life is hard because I am always being responsible about this bill and that bill. And a lot of my unhappiness is due to my life is so much behind everyone else's. I have no children. No husband. My life is my own and it is so very boring.
Yeah, I didn't do anything this weekend, but read and nap. Really exciting, huh? I normally walk around in parks, take pictures, and enjoy nature, but I don't want to do those things. My mother said it had to stem from me not seeing D., as it has been over a month since I have seen him. She told me he has just been busy with working and doesn't have time for me much anymore. (Wow, so observant with that one. D. has always been able to drag me down, as I worry too much when I don't see him. I worry that he will forget about me.) I really don't want to think about it too much. I will probably start crying or hole up into doing nothing for about 24 hours. I trying hard to do something. Anything. I am afraid if allow myself to sink much deeper, then all will be lost.
I really miss D. He hasn't said much to me. We were suppose to be going camping in Illinois this week, but he changed the date until October. Sigh. I wonder if I will ever see him again. Another reason I hate my life so much.
Sigh.
The Things that I accomplished already today are:
August 3, 2014
√ Feed, love and snuggle with my kitties
√ Read a little
√ Buy groceries
√ Paint a little bit
The Things I want to accomplish before I go to bed:
August 3, 2014
Read more
The Things I want to accomplish tomorrow:
August 4, 2014
Make my bed (It has been horrible. I stopped doing this)
Feed, love and snuggle with my kitties (Mekong is always snuggling with me)
Read a little
Paint a little bit
write a little
call my Dad
Pick up dirty clothes
WEEKLY GOAL FOR August 3rd 2014 – August 9th, 2014
PUT $74 IN SAVINGS: Since my car has been paid off since April 2014, I wanted to put $200 a month into my savings, as if I am still making a car payment. So I am putting $50.00 a week into my savings. But last pay check, I wasn't able to do that so I have added an addition $17.00 for the next 3 weeks to replace the $50.00 that I was unable to pay. As well as I had to transfer an addition $50.00 from my savings so now I am also paying out an additional $7.00 for the next 8 weeks. So I am paying myself an extra $24.00 out a week until I am back to where I should be. I should have $217.46 in my savings but I only have $107.46. So I am having to replace the $110 that should be there. That is my goal, if I can stick to it.
WRITE IN JOURNAL(AT LEAST TWICE (TO START): I would like to start doing this again.
FINISH READING A BOOK: I am currently reading The Puppet King : The Chaos War Series by Douglas Niles. It is a Dragon Lance book. I finished The Mark of Athena by Rick Riordan on Friday. I have currently read 43 books this year. My goal is 60 books.
CROCHET/KNIT: The silent urge has been there, but I haven't picked up any of my yarn or needles.
READ BIBLE: Of course, this isn't working out much, but I have started watching some DAYSTAR shows and stuff on TV. I watched some nice Christian cartoons on Saturday. It is a start.
ORGANIZE MY NOVELS: I have been working on this.
WRITE 1,000 WORDS ON MY NOVEL (3 times a week): I started a new month, so I want to work on my novel a bit. I started working on the outline on Friday, but of course, I did nothing over the weekend to accomplish this.
GO TO LOWES (CHECK OUT FIXING LEAK IN WATER HEATER): I need to get this done. I miss having hot water. Washing my body in a half shower/half wash cloth is not fun. There is a slight leak on the pipe. I just have to figure out how I can repair it cheaply so I can have hot water again. Sigh. So many expensive things to fix. I am hoping this is not one of them.
CALL DAD: I talked to my Dad on Friday for a brief time, but I have maybe called him twice in two weeks. I have stopped calling every day. They are busy, as they are moving (for the first time in 20 years) and I am tried of hearing “you need to get more more” or “find some one else”. Any way, it feels just so fake acting like I am happy with I talk to him. I miss him, but I get no comfort even taking to him much. So I rather just leave them alone. I should talk to him more then I have. I am trying.
PICK UP 5 THINGS DAILY: This is a new goal. It is a hope that I will get motivated and clean more then I have. Depression has really reeked havoc in my daily life. I don't pick up after myself. There is no one to impress. No one cares how I live. I don't care to wash dishes, (I do take the trash out), dirty laundry is piling up and book, crafts, papers, etc are every where. I need to start somewhere. This might help me become more motivated. I hope. (But I doubt that it will.)
MY FOOD LOG FOR: August 3, 2014
BREAKFAST: half pint of blueberries
DRINK: Water
SNACK: Half of pint of blueberries (rest of the container), ear of corn with butter
DRINK: Water
LUNCH: A cup of steamed carrots and two ears of sweet corn with butter
SNACK: A jar of apple and cherries (a jar of baby food)
DRINK: Arnold Palmer Half & Half Ice tea
DINNER: One cheddar and bacon hamburger, two cups of mixed veggies (yellow squash, zucchini, red onion, green pepper and 4 ½ bacon wrapped cream cheese jalapeno poppers. (There were 8, but they were so hot, I couldn't eat them. I ate the bacon and cream out of them)
DAILY MORALE: Very lonely
POSITIVE THING: Mekong was snuggling with me most of the day.
EXERICISE: Walking, unknown miles
WATER INTAKE: Approximately 32 ounces
WEIGHT: 146 pounds
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