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I went to my psychiatrist today
I went to the psychiatrist and got no reactions and my feelings about the devil.
Date: 5/19/2014 3:07:55 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1808 times I went to my psychiatrist today and everything went well. The nurse there was really close to me. And there were other people there but no one reacted. They all acted perfectly normal.
There was a little boy there. He was around 12 yrs old. He was in the waiting room with me and did nothing. He was just in there playing his video games.
I was so surprised to get the response that I got because I was sure that I smelled. But when I went to the psychiatrist people didn't treat me as if I smelled.
It gave me hope. It made me feel like I can do this. I was so worried before I went that someone would do something, react in some way. But no one did. Not a single nose rub, cough, sneeze, comment. Nothing...
Hopefully this medicine will kick in and work for me before August because my mom and the kids are going to Disney World then. I'll be alone in the house with my dad and I know I will be scared if the meds aren't working to full capacity.
I'm still scared of the devil. It doesn't seem to be getting better. Once the voices started changing and telling me that they were all me and I was the devil I thought things would change fast. But they haven't.
I still think about the devil all the time and worry about him. It's taking its toll on me. I stress that more than anything else because it makes me feel unsafe. If that could go away I would be so happy.
I try to change my thinking but it just doesn't work. This is so ingrained in my mind I can't stop thinking about it. I hope it goes away soon because I'm losing hope and strength to deal with it.
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