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I'm getting better
I celebrated my birthday yesterday and my delusions are getting better
Date: 4/15/2014 5:43:39 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 9178 times It's been 7 weeks since I got back on my medicine and I'm seeing improvements. The voices have gotten so much better. I barely hear them which makes it easier to ignore them. The delusions which are the hardest thing to go away are still there but are getting better. I don't think about them as much as I did a few days ago. They aren't on my mind all the time which I love. They really seem to be going away.
Now I have to stay away from drinking and most of all smoking weed. Smoking weed makes my voices louder and more persistent. So its best if I don't do it. At least not while I'm trying to get better. It's a hard thing to do but when my sanity is on the line its worth it.
I celebrated my birthday yesterday and it was great. I got lots of well wishes from people from my past. It was nice to see they were thinking of me. I talked to my old best friend about the past. It was so good back then. I had nothing to worry about. I wish life would go back to the way it was.
I'm trying to stay positive but there's no emotion in the positive. When I think negatively or listen to negative music I feel so much emotion but when I'm thinking positively or listening to positive music there's much less emotion. I think it's because I'm more connected to the negative.
I spent 8 years thinking negatively. Thinking about death and hate. So it's home to me. I'm just now realizing how the positive is there if you look for it. It takes time to change your mind.
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