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I know I don't smell
Breaking free from my delusions
Date: 4/7/2014 5:34:52 AM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 1145 times I wrote about my somatic delusions on crazyboards and two people came on saying they believe they smell too. But when they don't take baths for a while people are more reserved about sitting next to them. People aren't reserved about sitting next to me. They sit next to me all the time. There could be open seats away from me and they will still sit right next to me.
Then I remember one time going out to the bar. There were people sitting and standing right next to me. We went to the bathroom and someone used the stall right after me. Then the bartender came from behind the bar and hugged me. The waitresses were also being nice to me. They would rest their hand on my back and say excuse me.
I've also experienced other times when what I believed to be true wasn't. When I was in the hospital I believed I was talking to people from around the world in my head. That revelation was happening, and that the president wanted to get me out the hospital to talk to me about world peace. I thought the tv was giving me messages about myself. And I could control the weather with my emotions.
Then Paulina rested her head in my lap twice. Once without me taking a bath that day. And she fell asleep on my arm when we were in the car. But she reacted when I hadn't taken a bath in a few days. So it's all in my head. And other people suffer with the same thing I do. I'm not alone in this. Everything I think is crazy. People wouldn't treat me the way they do if I smelled. They're nice to me. All the time. The experience I had at the bar should be enough to tell me I don't smell. That wouldn't happen to someone who smells.
That's what I have to look forward to. What happened at the bar. People hugged me at church too. And asked me back. So coming from someone who doesn't have a body odor problem but just doesn't take a bath sometimes people are more reserved about sitting next to you when you smell. That's how I know I don't smell. Because people aren't reserved about sitting next to me. They do it all the time. I'm the one with the problem.
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