I once heard a very wise preacher say concerning abortion, "It's not the babies we should worry about. It's the women that went through the trauma of abortion. They need our love and concern. They need healing and restoration. The babies are safe with God."
Now is the time for you to take care of yourself. All of these wonderful words will help you I'm sure. Feel hugged and loved by all of us. We are the Father's arms.
Sometimes I picture myself curled up on Jesus' lap. He comforts and understands our hurts.
As far as you not being repentent - it seems to me you are repentent. You now have a baby to prove it.