the only reason i made references to how i was somewhat skinny and pretty was to show that i have this disease and it is mostly mental. i am not trying to make myself feel better or above anyone just that i have so many issues and that even people who may not seem like they have issues, can and do, and that diseases like this can affect a broad spectrum of people. also, that my superficial tendencies are a big reason and apart of my disorder. i am not proud of it but i have to face it =)