Re: My ACNE story

hi ed, i'm sorry you're having a tough time with this face thing. like you, i am a long time Acne sufferer. i am also diagnosed with rosacea. although people always tell me i'm cute, i dont think so. i have clever ways with makeup. i have a face/body image complex. i have had a nose job, and breast implant surgeries all in an effort to make me feel better about myself, and most importantly to feel like i look good. i was an exotic dancer for a long time. the lights are low that no one really can see the condition of your skin. i always got out of there before the house lights went up!! i also was a drug abuser for many years. i liked cigaretts, cocaine, heroine at times, pot all the time - i smoked dope the minute i woke up, and it often was the last thing i did at night. my dermatologist has had me on so many meds (never accutane) that i will not even mention the list because it would be too long. most recently he had me on 500mg. tetracycline, and noritate topically. this went on for 4 months straight even though my skin was improving somewhat he still was making me take the tetracycline, and that really bothered me. i didnt mind the topical cream at bedtime, but the pills really f**ked me up in the head. so one day (july 20, 2002) i just said NO. no drugs, no cigaretts, no pills, no tetracycline, no drinking alcohol, clean and sober 100%. now that was something that really i had never in my life tried. i've been a drug user since age 12. i went thru some w/d symptoms, then recently i've noticed my skin is really getting better. some Acne at times, but the rosacea is nearly not even noticeable. i dont even put any makeup on my cheeks in the daytime. i'm so sorry i'm babbling. i dont even know what i wanted to say to you . just to really share with you. stay well, peenut