Re: Relationship advice with Trust

I was married at 19 and i caught my husband with p 0 r n way before internet.He never seemed interested in me sexually,even our first year he was 23,i think this was something that was apart if his life early on.I tried everything to help us he always made me feel as if i was trying to always start a fight.i divorced after 11 years and 2 children,it never changed.i never told anyone why i just said i wasn't happy.everyone made me feel so bad ,why would i leave someone who loved me and my children so much.i felt so much guilt that after 3 years i went back and remarried him,i think he was trying,i know things weren't quite there.i had so much bitterness and anger inside me that i really never forgave him that after about 4 years i thought about leaving again ,but for some reason i started having an affair,i had gotten to the point i didn't care;what i done was wrong; he ended up divorcing me,we were together about 7 more years.I really think i never forgave him,i didn't realize that until i saw he wouldn't forgive me.without forgiveness you live in the past and you can't move forward.I treated him like he had an affair i felt very betrayed.the p 0 r n destroyed our marriage and if i would've known then what i know now i would've turned to people that truly cared about us and would of wanted us to be together,i always thought maybe we could've got some help.He's a good man a wonderful father;but we've been apart 4 years now{inMarch we would've been married 24 yrs}we will never be back together and give our children the family they deserve Tweet