"Only the good die young".

There are different versions of that song (it's not just Billy Joel) and there is disagreement as to it's meaning, but, basically it means that the more tender your heart, the more likely it is that a piece of you will die every day (in sorrow, a sentimental heart will experience more disappointment from this cold, cruel world).

I'm a 52 year old male that has suffered 51 years of suicidal Depression because of the failure of my parents (family ostracized me and made me feel less than human, broken spirit, identity crisis). So, you see, it really can get worse and mess up your life if you don't handle the situation while you're young (I guess if I had only read a book like magic glitter mentioned, it wouldn't have continued for 51 years). I never had any therapy at all because my personal attitude (strong willed) was that it is indoctrination, and I love myself too much to let that happen (oh well, to each his own). I've ENDURED a lot of adversity (never SUFFERED adversity because I always knew I didn't DESERVE TO SUFFER,...attitude). Magic Glitter is right, SELF-RESPECT is very important. One thing I've always noticed whenever I met someone who was depressed/lonely is that depressed people tend to be very insightful and smart because they have learned to actually feel and understand sorrow (empathy). By their nature, they also tend to be genuinely and sincerely righteous (not self-righteous) and the kind of person that a decent person would very much want to know (and the kind that shallow people have a need to disrespect and resent,...standing next to you, the shallow person looks like a low-down "slug"). You'll notice that people who have little sneaky schemes will constantly try and put you down and make a fool out of you because you make them look BAD because of your noble character (you offend their conscience). You feel comfortable with yourself (your conscience needs no defense, theirs does). It's also that they are shallow and you tend to be profound (you also offend their ego). Realize these things about yourself, this will help you with self-respect. In the beginning, humility will become a problem, just keep that in mind.

I didn't get to see the other posts that were mentioned (so I'm only commenting on this one).

Don't worry about the spelling errors too much, until you have a clear mind to concentrate (without the insane stress of the family), concentration on learning ANYTHING is going to be an uphill battle (it is unlikely that you'll be able to do much in college while living with family).

People tend to LIVE their nicknames, it would be better not to call yourself "Outsider". I came to Curezone when I was about 47. In 47 years, as far as emotional adversity, I've experienced just about everything and really have "been there done that". So, try a username like "Growing Strong" or "I'm here" (names are therapeutic and build confidence).

Don't condemn yourself for playing video games, they offer you peace of mind (something that I searched for all my life), just don't let them become an OBSESSION and keep you away from people. Society teaches us a lot of prudish, condescending and self-defeating attitudes towards ourself and others. It teaches us to be in competition with each other and frantically pursue status. With this attitude, we can never feel "satisfied" that we are adequate and will always feel UNCOMFORTABLE WITH OURSELVES. No one is "better" than another person, we might be "better off" than somebody else (with a better job, happy marriage, etc.), but not better THAN the other person. Get to know who you are and what kind of person you are (shallow, profound, good/decent or bad/scheming, etc.). The only way we can enjoy life and really be happy is by knowing who we are. Don't sentence yourself to never having a girlfriend, God will make a fool out of you. Tweet