Re: I want to die

Hey Dawnseve Teddybear and all,

Dawn your story is almost mine. I had just moved in with a guy some 15 years ago and just a month later got fever, aches, chills and a pimple on my woohoo. I too had no clue. My Dr. really upset me too because when he said it was herpes and recommended I see my gynocologist, he treated me as if I were a whore. He backed away, pulled his glvoes off, turned his nose up at me and got rid of me asap. It felt awful! I left there and experienced the things you did except didn't tell anyone but the boyfriend. He acted like he had no clue and that I brought it to the table. Yet I look back and about a week before my outbreak, he had a sore on his woohoo and said he cought it in his zipper. Right!

So, I stayed with him because I felt like no one would want damaged goods. He continued to catch his woohoo in his zipper several times in our relationship silly guy! You would think once was enough. Grrrr. I would breatk out about a week after him every time! Still he never admitted it, but didn't request a condom. I fianally left him.

Coincidentally he cheated on me a bunch it turns out and he slept with my brothers wife. I am not sure if she gave it to him, but she gave it to my brother! My brother and I had no idea they had slept together until much later. We just thought we both got it. He actually began to accuse me of giving it to him via towel since we lived together, but it came out later my ex and his ex cheated on us together. What a sad case huh!

I remember sitting in a tub and crying because I hurt so bad on one outbreak. I couldn't pee without pouring water over my woohoo for the first year or so. I still never told anyone else and then a friend moved in with me and was dating a guy. I saw a bottle of zovirax on her dresser one day. I sat down with her and asked how long she had herpes? She was surprised I knew but said she had recently got it. Again since we lived together, I thought maybe she got if from me via a towel but it doesn't seem likely. She believes her boyfriend gave it to her.

I have to say lots of people would hate me for this, and I know it is wrong, but I only told one guy I dated that I had it. I just didn't sleep with them if I thought I was broke out. I was too afraid of being outed in my small town.

I do want to say that after about 4 years, I have quit having outbreaks except possibly once a year. It is so minor that I don't even know. And I have just ordered this natural oil called herp something for my fever blisters and will use it down there if I feel something.

It does get better. Hang in there. Tweet