Re: I want to die

Dear Teddybear,

It is great you found this forum and posted how you are feeling. Your note made me cry, because I have gone through the emotional Depression similar to what you have described.

I was 21 y/o when I contracted herpes. It was 11 years ago and now I am 32. This guy I was madly in love with then apparently gave me, but he told me he never experienced any outbreaks in the past but I am not sure if he told me the truth.

I was MAD! and terribly depressed for a very very long time. I know how you feel, I felt I was useless, dirty, nobody, unwanted, and I did not deserve to love ANYBODY for the rest of my life. How can I drag someone into the shit I am experiencing??
But how can I live the rest of my life alone??

To be honest, I have not figured out these questions yet... I am still alone and have not found the right person to spend the rest of my life. But I do believe I would meet someone eventually who will love me the way I am. There was a couple I knew, one had herpes and the other not but they were madly in love with each other. We have to believe this will also happen to us!

But, HEY!!, we can not think we are the poorest of those people around us!! There are many millions of people living without food somewhere in the world, while we can get free provision if we really want to. We have parents, we have friends, we live in a country where we enjoy freedom of many sorts, or we can have a decent life if we DO try. I try to think I am lucky to be where I am....

Please do not think you want to die!!
Please do not think of killing yourself, otherwise, you are letting your ex-bastard's action, who is apprently selfish and inconsiderate of other people's life, like mine, ruin your life!!

You are better than him, he will never be able to be happy as long as he is that way.

Teddybear, let's not let those a0s h0les ruin our lives!!
We deserve better than that!!