(((HUGS))) to you hun. You were betrayed by your ex in a huge way. I can see why you are hurting.
I have depresson also and have been suffering from it since I was 5 yrs old so I understand where you are coming from. If you ever want to email me to chat, please feel free. Having Depression definitely makes it harder to deal with. I pray that someday you will overcome your hurt by your ex. I pray that someday you will not allow his betrayal to have power over you...that you will find peace with it and inner strength to overcome. I believe you will when the time and circumstances are right. You are wonderfully made...remember that.
Love, Dawnseve