Re: i need a friend...
think about whatever you want to do. if its your dream do it!
just take care of your health and be aware that there are people out there that will try to manipulate you. thats in any job and any place.
stop thinking about what everyone else says or thinks.
think for yourself.
you can get out now by calling a local womens shelter. just call information and ask for the #. it doesnt cost money. and yes all changes are hard. but what you are dealing with right now seems pretty damn hard too. distance could grant you great perspective. you have already come to that conclusion yourself.
modeling i did fashion and commercial. fashion you are rail thin and commercial is more regular buy crest toothpaste faces. but you have to have a concrete place to come from before starting a career in that. thats why i say get out now and start living your life. you only get one.
where are you from outside of the usa? why do you think you would have to leave?