Re: i need a friend...

Thank you so much for replying to me, and for listening. It means a lot.
You are right about everything you said. I know this marriage isn't healthy for me at all...
Right now I am starting a purging process again, losing weight, exercising and letting out my emotions. I feel a lot better because I am losing weight again, which i know is actually a dangerous thing (me feeling good because i am losing weight and gaining control), but I can't stop it. I just feel that it is my pain that is driving me to this.
It doesn't matter me knowing the danger and how messed up the whole situation is, the main thing I feel about myself right now is that I am fat, and then there is all my pain, Depression and the reasons for being so sad. I don't know anymore what is right or not, or what the best way is to deal with this situation. I definately think it is really good to be able to talk to someone. That is probably the only thing that can help me now.

Will write again soon,
R.



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