Re: Bummer!

Thanks for your caring,support, concern and advice. You are correct, what does not kill you makes you stronger. I have more bruises on my arm.I did not have a broken arm so that is good. I do think I have some broken bones in my feet.From round one, ding ding. He stomped my right foot, among other things. Not submitting to x ray. They will heal. It is no big deal. I am fine as along as every one stays out of our business. As long as he does not start screaming and yelling. IF he listens to ANY one that is a drunk or other dysfunctional person, I am in for literally weeks of pure hell. He goes to another island and drinks, goes to the bars, listens to total dysfunction and then comes home and I have to pick up the pieces. He is diabetic, has high blood pressure and high cholestoral and each of the medicines he takes for these health issues has a warning label on it saying not to drink alcohol while taking this medication.IF he goes over there and gets drunk I do not want to claim responsibility for my own actions if any thing happens to him. I suppose he skips a dose of medicine and thinks he is ok to drink....also he seems to think it is all right to drink and drive. I have over 13 years of sobriety. I have not been to a meeting in a couple weeks. I must get back to meetings this week and attend them a regular basis. He is supposed to be going to counseling. I am not sure where that will lead. The counselor saw me once, told me that she suggested I go to the womans shelter and at least take classes. I told her I could probably teach the classes. I have the information they teach. I do not use it because I do not agree with it.She said that she suggests I go to the shelter, take their classes for abuse. I could also use some anger management classes. I am acting out, responding to things I should ignore and reacting instead of acting. I actually told my old man that if he puts his hands on me in a bad way again, ever, I will go for it and fight him with ALL that I have, and I will do that. I will defend his attack to the best of my ability. I will not be bruised again without returning it with all I have. I am a woman, 5'8", around 175 and am strong. He claims to have taken and taught self defense classes. I could give a shit less. I do not claim to have any degrees in self defense but I am here to tell you that I can fight and with God on my side that is all I need. I will call up my angel warriors from heaven and we will go to town if that is what he wants. Yes, it is a co-dependent thing. Yes, it is an addictive love affair. Yes, we both need anger management classes. No I will NOT live at a womens shelter. No, I did NOT file a TRO. He got out of jail early. They opened the door around 10 PM, so he says, Sunday night. The whole thing was dropped.I could care less. I have the truth posted on here and some on my blog, which I intend to update soon. It is at another website, not at Curezone. We spent hours getting to the car and getting it running. The cops busted off the key in the ignition. I had it bent and the car still started, ran, stopped and started and ran again. The busted off section of the key in the ignition was no where in the car nor was it in his personal possessions. They acted like they owned the car. He told them to leave the ignition alone. They chose to damage it. I am glad that they were NOT able to get out the section of the key that they broke off. There IS a set of keys out some where. My ol man did NOT get the locked changed in the doors nor did he get a new ignition made. The car is five years old, need I say more? I said yank the chip and carry it with you when you are not driving the car. It is the last one so I hope he is able to hang onto that one. He failed to replace the one he carried and it stopped working so being and dumb ass I gave him mine to use. Now I have none and he has the last one and if he loses that one he will have another financial mess on his hands because he did not do what he needed to do. I am not longer being care taker of the car nor of him. He had to pay a lock smith 75 bucks to get the car going. He had lost his patience and took a screw driver and stuck in into the ignition and pounded the end of the handle of the screwdriver with a pair of heavy plier type tools. The lock smith said he could have damaged the tumblers. I said I could have also, when I kicked the key and flattened it against the steering column. However the car started up and ran after I kicked the key. Also, the Police Officer could have damaged it when he almost had the broken off key out I do not know. I got there after he broke off the key and had the rest of the key almost out of the ignition. When I opened the passenger door and sat down he almost had the broken off key out. I grabbed my tweezers and poked the key back in. I was getting pissed off at them by then. They had taken our little dog out of the back seat of the car, where he was riding in his carrier. They had out little dog in his carrier setting on the trunk lid of the police car. I asked if I could get my things out of the car. That is when I went over and got in on the passenger side of the car and saw the Police Officer trying to get the key out. Needless to say I was totally out of patience by then and hard a hard time keeping my mouth shut. The best thing a person can do here when talking to a Police Officer is say as little as possible. Actually after this weekend I have absolutely nothing to say at all to any of them. I suppose I will be subpoenaed into court in the future. I will choose to plead the fifth and say nothing. I do not have to talk and they cannot make me. I do not even go to court even if I am subpoenaed. I let the court date pass, let the warrant be issued, let them arrest me on the bench warrant and then I do what I have to do. Some day I will tell that story on my blog. It is pretty funny to hear it. I have plenty of decisions to make today and this week. I am unsure what direction I am heading. Yes, I love my ol man. I just wish that every one would leave us the hell alone to try and work this shit out our selves. WE are the ones that have a relationship. Only WE can make it or break it. We need useful information. WE do not need hassled, questioned or aggravated....hell we have that together now and certainly do not need more of it. I will keep you posted.

Thanks again.

Blueduck