I am very sensitive to the kind of energy people have. Even if we "butted heads," I always admired your inner strength. I hope the best for you and if you decide to stay, you are going to need to tap that inner strength. "What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger?" Maybe if I had not run, I wouldn't still be dealing with the "what if's" I am going through now? It may be that I never resolved my own victim mentality... but I at least lived to tell the tale. I apologize if I projected that role of "victim" on you. I can see you have a lot more resolve than I ever did. I was dopey in love and I just couldn't see straight. I may not have been on drugs or alcohol but I was caught up in something that I could not control... If you are going to stay where you are, you are going to need to fully utilize the inner strength you have and stay the bright clear minded person I have always recognized in you. Be careful...