Well I wish you all the best. I don't mean to be insulting if I say I wish you were on Team Jesus. We could use someone like you. It's actually a compliment, if you could see to accept it as that.
Of course it takes a complete change of heart. A willingness to trust someone. Not everyone has trust of a Father figure. However He is very healing and loving and understands where we are right now in our lives.
There are plenty of other things we can discuss, but I have to let you know that my faith is a big part of my life. The name of Jesus follows me where ever I go because I love Him that much.