Having a rough time.

So some of you might remember that I have adrenal fatigue, candida, hypothyroidism, and a probable liver problem. My adrenal fatigue got really bad at one point and my depression and anxiety took over. A few months ago I was having scattered, nonsense thoughts and getting dissociated all the time (I think due to my body not accepting thyroid meds, but also from my AF spiking and stress reaching its limits). Somehow I fought through that and had more clear thoughts for a while, but was borderline suicidal for about 2 weeks. Now with counseling, a better attitude, living situation, time with friends, prayer and meditation, I'm very cautiously optomistic but my mind still goes into crashes of negativity and I start to shake, get palpitations and feel weak pretty easily from stress (though not as bad as before). I'm seeing a psychiatrist as reccommended by my counselor and naturopath, because nothing they've done has helped, they think I need to be perscribed something to help. Amino acids made me itchy and paniced or kept me up at night, stromonium made me manic and kept me awake one night, then gave me a panic attack the next day, and nothing has worked for adrenal support (my naturopath tried ginseng and ashwagandha). The general concensus is that taking care of these emotional and neural problems will go a long way towards being able to heal physically. Does anyone have any insight or suggestions on getting my head straight so I can deal with life instead of being constantly overwhelmed by it? I feel like if I can't get past that I won't get better, but if I don't get better I won't get past it. It's hard to even get on here and look for answers because it's so overwhelming, but I know inaction won't do any good.

I'm also having sleep problems again. It takes me a few hours to get to sleep and even if I get a full nights sleep, I don't feel rested in the morning, and if I don't get a full nights sleep I can barely function. Has anyone found relief from this symptom?

At the beginning of the month I was realizing I might have some liver problems and freaked out because of it. I was very worried about what I would eat because of my already restrictive candida diet and I was a mess. After a month of avoiding fatty foods and certain proteins, and having warm lemon water every morning, I've noticed that it has had an effect. I've gotten very limited die off from time to time, and that's big because it's been months since I've had any. I find it very hard to avoid all fats and proteins though, and I don't know what makes a difference and what further steps I should take to clear my liver of toxins and fats. The only time I have much progress is when I totally avoid anything with fat or protein besides chicken for days, but then I'm way too hungry and I can feel it's bad for me. I know I can't handle a liver cleanse right now. My body is way too weak. Does anybody know of any gentle ways to support my liver and get some amount of detox happening? Right now I'm just on milk thistle, glutathione, stress b complex, iron, vitamin c, and vitamin d, and I have lemon water at least once a day.

I really don't know what to eat, I tried branching out and trying things outside my normal diet like low sugar greek yogurt, brown rice, and other things but they caused flare ups. Now I'm just eating broccoli, cauliflower, rutabaga, onions, brussels sprouts, spinach, kale, buckwheat, chicken, and teff bread, but the teff bread seems to be a problem from the eggs and olive oil used to make it. Does anyone have any suggestions for staying full, starving candida, and getting nutrition while avoiding burdening my liver further?

Another thing that has been going on recently is I have constant minor throat and nose congestion that has stuck around after a flu for about 2 months, and my mouth has been getting rough or developing blood blisters easily. I think it might be a combination of candida, low immune and liver function, and my low platelet count but I have no idea. Yesterday I had a blister swell to the size of my finger in my mouth, I messed with it and it popped and I was in pain all day. It's much better now but it was scary.

My candida is in a bad spot. I've gotten symptoms recently that I only had before I knew what I was dealing with and got it under control. Testicular and lower abdominal pain has returned from time to time, skin is flaring up all over (especially in the groin), and brain fog is severe. I know it probably has to do with my liver not being able to detox, because antifungals rarely ever give a reaction, but does anyone know how to get the fungus down to a manageable population in my situation. The groin rashes get so bad it's extremely hard to function at work. Even if anyone knows a temporary fix to that it'd be huge. Right now I just use gold bond, which used to work good sometimes, but now seems to irritate the folds of my skin when the rash worsens. I've tried coconut oil and clotrimazole, but hours after applying it I'm more uncomfortable than I would be with just gold bond. It doesn't seem to bring down the rash much. It's gross but worth noting that I get pain in my urethra and irritation/stubbiness of my genitals when I'm stressed for long periods at work.

The last thing I will post on is my current medical care situation. I just left the delivery job I had that was giving me the health insurance I was using to see my naturopath, so I'm uninsured. Being out of the job has helped me get sleep since I was on call every morning, and my car is getting some much needed down time because of the change, but I'm screwed as far as healthcare until I find a better job or get medicaid or something. My MD is at a free clinic so I can see her but she hasn't helped much at all, and my free care at the local hospital has run out so I can't get any testing done even if she agrees with me and puts in orders for needed testing. I'm working on medicaid and my freecare today, but that won't likely get me working with someone who can help treat my issues. I'm going to try to get on nutritional balancing as soon as I get my income tax and that's the only hope I have right now. Is there anyone out there that has ever been in a similar situation and had NB help with all these issues? I'm so scared that I'll try it and it will be for nothing. And I just don't know what to do as far as seeing physicians because even naturopaths haven't been able to fix me and I'm cut off from alternative healthcare from the time being. I know I can't do it on my own. Does anyone have any idea what I should do?

My plan right now is to get support here, get my hair tests and start NB, and try to find a halfway decent western doctor to work with once I get free care or medicaid or both. It's just so hard to find a good doctor with limited healthcare, and once I pick one its a big commitment. Does anyone have experience finding a good traditional doctor who can help with all these issues? And what do people think about my approach to all this? I'm open to a new game plan, because I don't know what's going to work right now. I seem to have some of the environmental and emotional stuff going in the right direction, but the more complex side (my body's chemistry etc) is not being addressed, and I'm sure it will not totally be addressed only with NB. I need to take care of it and I don't know how. The theories and implications of symptoms go way over my head and I can't keep all the information organized without freaking out. If anyone has any guidance for me thank you in advance.

-Risen

PS: I realize that my post is messy and doesn't go into much deep detail, but it was a huge task to get on here. If I'm not being direct enough to get efficient help, let me know. And let me know what details I should include to get better answers. There's just a lot going on and I can't even remember everything that could be in play right now.