Parasites and a husband who is verbally abusive

Dear Friends,
As I am writing this my husband is yelling at me and he just doesn't stop. I have no one to talk to and I'm so hurt that all I want to do is turn myself off. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I've been to soooo many doctor's but in order for me to get in with an infectious disease doctor my primary doctor has to refer me and I'm sick of trying to convince people that something is wrong when I know something is wrong. I've never been crazy. I have collected so many things but no one ever wants to look at any of it. I'm to the point where I just want to think of a way out. I don't know where to go and he has all the money. I'm afraid if I ever did kill myself that it may be worse. I don't know what to believe. Does anyone feel this way?

Thank you,
Larsy Tweet