I am getting worse.

I have tried staying off these boards because they drive me crazy. But right now I have nowhere to turn to. I am alone in this. I am tired of fighting this. I don't even know what I have anymore.

I can't follow the strict anti-Candida diet anymore because I was starting to get very low blood Sugar episodes to the point I started passing out. I also had what I thought was a seizure, though I have no idea what a seizure feels like. This started happening on an only meat/veggie/oil diet. Honestly I think this diet has really hurt my liver and used up my glucose stores. Took a whack at my adrenals too. I don't even know.

I now focus on eating a balanced meal. Note, I don't think anyone should follow such a strict diet for long when trying to gain their health back, especially when you're underweight like me. But I still get frequent Sugar drops that are very scary, I do have to eat a fast-acting carb during these times. And I have to eat a complex carb at every meal or I'll feel extremely lightheaded afterwards.

I don't know what's wrong. I am so young yet have a hundred or so symptoms that are getting worse. I just turned 21 this past July. I have been sick since 18 and made myself even sicker this past year when adhering to this anti-Candida lifestyle. Then I tried to address adrenal issues/copper imbalance this summer and started getting the passing out.

Now my brain fog is so bad I literally can't remember what I'm talking about in the middle of a sentence. "Brain fog" sounds harmless but it is honestly the worst symptom. I don't know what's causing it. But I can not function out in the real world at all anymore. I can't have a conversation with the person I love most, it kills me. I can't go on walks anymore without feeling like I'm going to pass out, I can't even concentrate on walking. I also seem to have no grasp on time.

I feel so hopeless. I don't know how I came to this point. I've been to the ER more than I can count on one hand just in the past month and they can't find anything wrong. I'm not surprised. The ER is really good for nothing. But I can't afford a real doctor to run real tests, I just know there's something terribly wrong.

One thing I feel ashamed about admitting is the ER did do a pap smear and it came back positive for Chlamydia. It supposedly is treated with one week of Doxycycline but I'm scared to death of taking an antibiotic, as I think Minocycline is the main reason why I'm where I'm at right now. So my chiropractor gave me a natural Antibiotic called Lauricidin. The thing is, the only guy I've slept with in the past 5 years got tested and he was clean. I just don't understand. I had a pap smear just last year and it came back normal. I'm guessing he passed it to me before and both of our immune systems kept it in check, but now that my immune system is really whacked up, it is taking over. Or maybe Candida kept it in check and since I started massively killing off Candida, especially with Nystatin, the bacteria ran wild. I have no idea. I do know Chlamydia is common in Lyme's disease though. Chlamydia can also supposedly cause blindness and my eyesight has been getting really bad recently, so that really worries me.

You guys, I really feel like my body is shutting down and I need help figuring out what to do, and soon. Sometimes I think I have Lyme's. Sometimes I think I have a heavy metal issue, but I just can't think of a reason heavy metals would be my main issue. Sometimes I think I have toxic mold in my house, in this case I have nowhere else to go anyway. Sometimes I think it may just be my adrenals, but there's got to be a reason for that. Sometimes I think it's all of the above and more. It could be so many things and it's driving me insane. I don't even know what I'm asking anymore. I hate feeling needy, but I feel so incredibly alone. I don't know how much more I can take.

I will try my very best to answer any further questions anyone may have, in the times I'm not in such a brain fog. I do have other threads describing my symptoms. Thank you.

Lily