thinking of remembering of child sexua| abuse

i recently have met this girl where there is something about her that makes me feel something something totally different than any other girl or anything. ITs like she treiggerd me remembering that i was sexually abused. She is just like me and shows all the signs of sexua| abuse. When im alone in a room with her i feel like im sick and almost like the whole universe is spinning or something like that.ALmost like its takin me back to that traumatizing moment that i cant quite get a grasp on. I sometimes feel like my heads in the sky or something like that. like im not in my body. But then other times i feel normal around her. I feel deep down inside that i was sexually abused wen i was younger its like a memory that is not my own like he got sexually abused not me but it is me. i can remember when i was little a older man but i cant remember what he looked like i remember when i was young me and his 2 sons who were my age going in his hot tub naked and then something bad happening at that time in my life i dont know Tweet