I understand the "need to know," I really do. But, I'm going to reiterate this point: if you really want to find your healing path, you'll make the choice to talk to someone who is in a better position to help guide you.
Children often have experiences that they cannot process which results in complete emotional detachment, or PSTD triggered reactions. In order to manage past events, it's imperative to enlist the help of a well-recommended, qualified person who can offer you positive options on how to exhume the past with as little damage as possible, examine those events, and put them in their proper place.
I don't know a single adult who didn't have some sort of negative sexually-based experience as a child. Either they were approached and propositioned, or were outright molested. You're not alone, and there are many different techniques to manage past experiences. Do yourself justice and take action. You are the only person who can do this, and even a paid counselor/therapist cannot (and, WOULD not) do the hard work for you.