Re: no anger, no worries

Hi Chiron,

Thank you for the way you treat me after what I did to you. I think that I need to explain myself in greater details.

Last night I must have been very intoxicated, sick, out of any control because when I opened your message about a coffee enema, I saw something completely different from what you really wrote. I hastily posted some short answer and went to bed with a fury in my heart. I have no idea what happened to me. I am not a belligerent, disagreable person.


What surprises me even more is fact that I kept arguing with you the whole night. I slept from time to time, had some dreams but all the time we had a very serious, fiery discussion about coffee enema. Even when I think I was awake we kept talking, and talking, and talking. I spent with you the entire night.

My mind must have been totally ill but then I believed that what was happening was real, not in my mind. I remember precisely how you did not like the concept of any enema on Wf and finally ordered me to stop.

In the morning my mind did not work much better because I felt the compulsion to expressed my dislike towards your behavior at night. That is why I wrote all this absolutely nonsensical staff to you. After a while, though, something seemed to snap in my sick brain because out of nowhere I started to think more clearly.

I know that now it all sounds really ridiculous and I myself hardly believe in what happened to me and what I did to you. I really regret that I posted such a terrible message that was provoked by the imaginary happenings and has nothing to do with reality. It has never ever happened to me before.

You are a total stranger to me; I do not know you at all. I acted like an insane, crazy individual.

I value your opinions very much, appreciate and admire them. Will you forgive me please?

LOVE,

Anne