First of all, I ADMIRE you for having the stamina to do 27 flushes! Unbelievable.
But, the first thing that popped into my head while reading your post is that you flush, drink, flush, drink, etc. Do you have any idea how hard your liver is working to filter all this alcohol you are addicted to? I am picturing your liver as jumping up and down for joy when you begin to clean it out and then how confused it then becomes when here comes all this alcohol back again. AT the rate you are going, you will NEVER completely clean out your liver.
I think if you clear up the ROOT issues of this addiction, all of your other problems will clear up, too. Then you will wind up with a clean liver and all your negantive issues will flush away, too. Your liver stores your emotions, you know.
Just know that you have so many friends here willing and able to help you. We have been where you are and we all backslide, too. So, you are not by yourself. The difference with our website is that we care about you and we love you.