Re: Nightmares, anxiety, shaking, depression. Help.

Hi Marshmallow,

"A few weeks" is just the beginning in your healing journey.  Sometimes healing and self discovery takes a bit of time.  Focus on each bit of progress that you make and rejoice.  Whatever route you choose to take, first and foremost love and nurture yourself.  It begins with loving oneself. 

One thing I would like to point out in the following statement that you made:

I can't expect to rush into health after spending so long letting my being deteriorate willingly.

Hmmmmm.........  You didn't necessarily let yourself deteriorate willingly.  An anxiety and panic disorder is very complex.  As you know, many times depression is also involved.  When caught in its grip, too many times we are not truly aware or have the wherewithall to realize what is happening to us and we slide downhill, slowly, but downhill nevertheless.  So many do not realize the seriousness of this condition.  For example, this very condition has caused me to deteriorate, but it was not willingly.  And to fully explain the aspects of this statement would take a chapter in a book.  In your healing journey, do away with any aspect of blame and replace it with unconditional love.  Actually, at the end of your journey, you will discover new growth that maybe you would not have attained if you were not given this challenge.  I know.........  a very painful challenge.

In the end, I want you to know that I support you and that I am here for you.  It's all about loving and accepting oneself, primarily.

Many Hugs,

Luella