Re: I want to apologize!
Vektek,
I sense that, as a woman, you would have the ability to express love for God the same as was expressed by Mary in the following verses...
http://www.blueletterbible.org/search/translationResults.cfm?Criteria=wiped+H...
That's what true devotion really is (LOVE for GOD...and then everything else will fall into place).
I read your posts last week and you mentioned that "truth" is very important to you (it's important for salvation too, this fact has never really been taught)...
2 Thessalonians 2:10
"because they refused to love the truth AND SO BE SAVED".
God designed/engineered scripture similar to the parables...
Luke 8:10
"To you it has been given to know the secrets of the kingdom of God; but for others they are in parables...".
No event in scripture is random/happenstance, everything happened as it was supposed to so that every word could be available to us and we could learn from them if we wished to learn more about God.
God had Pilate ask "What is truth" (John 18:38) so the individual reader would be able to discover the significance of objective truth. Humanity only cares about SUBJECTIVE (biased/emotional) truth that will be more convenient.
So, even though you made a mistake (the act of repenting was the learning experience), consider yourself blessed by the experience.
Apologies are good (if they are for a GENUINE injustice). You really were not unjust, but you are right that God is the judge (and it's better not to sow discord). You were only defending the truth (but it's better not to sow discord, this is the dilemna we are left with). Don't be too hard on yourself, there will be more trials/learning experiences ahead.
It is for those who can express the same sentiment as Mary to develop eyes to see and ears to hear in order to learn the "depths of God" (1 Corinthians 2:10) and have a "faith FOR faith" (Romans 1:17, Hebrews 11:6) and "walk by THE SPIRIT" (Galatians 5:16) so we can "enter by the door" (John 10:1) and be judged under "the law of liberty" (James 1:25, 2:12, Ephesians 2:15). Our love should become perfect (1 John 4:18, Mark 12:30) after coming to know The Lord as "Abba Father" (Galatians 4:6, instead of master/taskmaster) and we should be "friend" (James 2:23, instead of slave/servant) and trust that Jesus did ALL of the "works of God" (John 6:28 and 9:3) when He established the outer temple in "three days" (John 2:19 and 21). We are the inner temple...
1 Corinthians 3:16
"Then they said to him, "What must we do, to be doing the works of God?".
If we fully TRUST that His graciously given FREE gift (NOT imperialist gift, nothing is expected in return) is sufficient for the "guarantee" (eternal life, Ephesians 1:14) of salvation, His "works" will be "manifested in" us...
John 9:3
Jesus answered, "the works of God might be made manifest...".
The inner ("living" water flowed at the cross) baptism by His spirit (Acts 1:5, 1 John 5:6, John 7:38) is so that we "neither thirst" (Revelations 7:16). The "strong delusion" has been in effect all throughout history because mankind rather love the bible instead of God "in truth" and in one's spirit".
In the introductory doctrine of Jesus (Hebrews 6:1),..."word of TRUTH" (2 Timothy 2:15, Ephesians 1:13, John 14:6), God gives us alot of good advice (wise counsel) and insight into human nature. There should be NO "self abasement" (Colossians 2:18, contrary to what is commonly taught and believed), so don't be anxious to apologize when you haven't been unjust, but are simply defending the truth.
The bible is not a spiritual authority. Jesus said...
Matthew 28:18
"ALL authority in heaven and earth was given to me".