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Today is really hard.
Date: 12/1/2005 2:10:38 PM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 2869 times For some reason, today is so hard. I left my credit card and cash at home so that I wouldn't be able to go buy anything, and I think I may very well have already done so if I hadn't. I just want curly fries and a shake... Soooo badly. IT'S KILLING ME. IT'S TORTURE. Will this craving go away if I make it through this phase? A part of me just wants to sneak out of the office, go home, get money, and walk and much back to the office, bringing "lunch." ... but no!!! Tomorrow is the day that someone will be bringing breakfast to the office, so that won't be easy if I'm having these kinds of cravings.
As for yesterday, I was feeling so out of whack because I had that piece of cheese, well actually three string cheeses, ... it didn't affect me at all though. I still lost a pound. I'm just under 100 now. Sounds great for the weight, I just want the skinny jeans to fit a bit roomier, want a little of the remaining flab on my buttocks and thighs to go, and want to give myself a little breathing room to regain a tad when I restart eating.
Ugh. I wish this wasn't so hard today. Tomorrow, I want to wear this one pair of skinny jeans that were a tad tight today, so I think I will just have to stick this one out. I have decided I will fast or if I feel to weak have tiny snacks for the next two weeks, and then start eating again. My fiance will be so happy about that. I may tell him that I already have started eating during the week, because he thinks I'm getting too skinny now.
Okay, I think I have the solution: I will stick to a fast today and for the next fourteen days (how little that sounds to me now!), and will buy myself these pair of boots I've been eyeing for being such a tough cookie with the weak side of myself.
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