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1/25/14: Broke fast. I didn't want to take a chance.
My daily journey toward a healthier lifestyle, a happier life and finding peace in my own world.
Date: 1/27/2014 5:18:26 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 9580 times January 25, 2014
“Get Off The Scale!
You are beautiful. Your beauty, just like your capacity for life, happiness, and success, is immeasurable. Day after day, countless people across the globe get on a scale in search of validation of beauty and social acceptance. ~― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free
I broke my Water fast (Started January 20, 2014)
I broke it last Friday night with drinking some Cranberry juice. On the way home I picked up a 12 inch Subway sub for later when I needed it. I started off with the cranberry juice first. I drank about 6 ounces slowly, and it seemed to help slow down the detoxification as well as kick my internal heater into gear. I didn't really eat anything physically until today, but since I went that far, I might as well, not stall my body like that. I definitely felt a lot warmer in the morning then I did the last 2 nights. I went to bed early as my body was just too worn out trying to stay warm.
I know that I didn't make it to even Day 6, which would have been Saturday 25, 2014, or even Day 15, which was suppose to be February 3rd. But I felt because of the very bitterly cold negative temperatures, that it was much harder to keep my core temperature at a safe level. I don't want to say that I gave up easily, as I had to really weight this dilemma to know if I should take a change on getting hypothermia during the next couple days, since I was struggling on Thursday to for 2 or 3 hours just to keep my body warm with a heating pad.
I want to say that I am disappointed in myself, but I know that I can't control the weather. Last year when I did a water fast it was in the 30's and 40's which is much warmer then the low single digits and negative numbers. I don't know when I will try again. I might try again next week, or I might wait a bit. All I do know is that I want to water fast, in order to right my body, lose a bit of weight, and correct the horrible eating I have done over the years.
I want to lose weight, but I have to remember that my weight doesn't make me who I am. (I say that now, because I feel confident. I know D. doesn't like chunky women) I want to look physically beautiful for him. I want a guy to look at me, and think “Wow!” But that isn't all. I have a lot of skills, and talents. I have a great job, and I am awesome at paying things off, and saving for things that I really want or need. I can cook a meal from scratch with anything odd combination of ingredients. I am artistic. I am creative. I am a writer and I have over 43 novels started (unfortunately none of them finished). I am thinker. I am a understanding person. I am a person that looks past all the negative to see what sunshine might be hiding. I am not always the most positive, but in the past I was able to always look at the positive in things. I have been hurt badly in this life. I am not using this as an excuse, because if I did, I wouldn't have gotten as far as I have in this life. I am worked very hard, to support myself (since I was 18 years old when I moved out), put myself though college, and to purchase my own home (it might be a trailer, but I purchased myself and it is my home, no matter how small). I haven't had any help from my parents or boyfriends. I have pushed myself to limits, because I had no choice to either move forward or get pushed back. Moving forward hasn't always been easy. It has been very lonely at times. But if I waited for someone or some guy to come into my life and sweep me off my feet, then I would be so bored to tears, and would have been sitting and doing nothing all these years.
I guess I said my little personal rant on how I feel.
The Things that I accomplished already today are:
January 25, 2014
√ Fed my cats and loved on them
√ Read A lot
√ Walk around my place and check my faucets
√ Charge my Nook
√ Work on my Budget
√ Find my color pencils
The Things I want to accomplish before I go to bed:
January 25, 2014
Take a Vitamin
Call my Dad
Read more
WEEKLY GOAL FOR JANUARY 19th - JANUARY 25th, 2014
WORK ON BUDGET: I had enough energy to work on my Budget and check book. It feels really good to see how nice it is to have something caught up and to date. I am really proud of myself to almost completing an entire month with keeping a budget and my check book balance. There was no excuse before but laziness. I think I might have to reward myself a little bit in February.
WRITE IN JOURNAL 7 TIMES: I want to say that I wrote in my journal, but I didn't. I have really been slacking on this. Some of it was because I was so stinking cold, but since I broke my fast, there was no real reason but laziness. Shame on me.
FINISH A BOOK: I didn't finish either Martin the Warrior b y Brian Jacques or Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams. It was cold, and I charged my Nook and read a little bit under the covers to stay warm, but I didn't realize I had over 800 pages to read on The Hitchhiker's Guide, when I was only at the beginning of the 2nd book. I didn't realize there was 5 books in it. I thought there was only 3. So finishing two books in a week was a no-good. But that isn't a bad thing. I finished at least one.
CROCHET 5 TIMES: No. I haven't started on this at all.
READ BIBLE 7 TIMES: No. I haven't even opened or thought about reading my Bible at all. I know this is very sad.
SAVE $20.00 IN SAVINGS: I accomplished this! I now have $60.00 in my savings!
PLAN GARDEN: I haven't found my gardening notebook, and not all of my seeds packets yet, but maybe in a couple days I will be able to catch up as I start feeling more motivated due to food in my body and the weather warms up for me.
START WATER FAST: I finished my fast officially last night with cranberry juice. I can't say that I am happy that I did, but I felt that it was for the best. I was struggling to much to stay warm in this bitterly cold. When I woke up my urine was still a bit frothy, and I still felt a bit restless and off, but not as noticeable cold, as I was yesterday. I guess the next step is to re-feed my body gently and then figure out when I might water fast again and how soon. I guess I should be happy that I made it to Day 5. That is better than nothing at all. I didn't notice that face looks just a little bit skinnier and my chin doesn't look as chubbier as it did when I was officially 150 pounds. I am currently 144 pounds. And I seem a bit thinner, and not so chunky. I guess even just losing 4 pounds in 5 days is better then nothing (even though I know I will gain those 4 pounds back. Oh well). Some of it is just not the pounds, but the detoxification that I was able to have for at least 2 days. I am sure it wasn't good to stop cold turkey like that, but I am sure it got a little something bad out of my system.
MY FOOD LOG FOR: January 25, 2014
BREAKFAST: (Drank this slowly over an hour ) 6 ounces of cranberry juice
DRINK: (Drank this over 2 hours) 12 ounces of V8 Juice
SNACK: One Clemintine
DRINK: Water
LUNCH: A bowl of Cambell's Chunky Clam Choweder (whole can)
SNACK: None
DRINK: Water
DINNER: Subway 6 inch Chicken Bacon Ranch sub with provolone cheese with spinach, green peppers, onions, black olives, yellow banana peppers, a little bit of ranch and mayo.
DAILY MORALE: Disappointed yet much, much warmer!
POSITIVE THING: I don't now what is positive about being alone on a weekend.
EXERICISE: Walking, 0.4 miles
WATER INTAKE: Approximately 56 ounces
WEIGHT: 144
INITIAL STARTING WEIGHT: 147 pounds (1/20/14)
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