Re: What Would You Do In This Situation?

I would love to move away eventually, but I have another issue. I am and have been on methadone maintenance for five years. For anyone who doesn't know what this is, it's a drug to combat opiate dependance, which works very well, and contrary to popular belief, does nothing in the way of getting you high. It only makes it so you can't get high.

I've tried to get off of it seven years ago and ended up almost dieing, and it was the most painful experience of my life, both physically and emotionally. I couldn't go through that again, and can't afford to move away due to the fact that i'm on a financial slot which I can't get elsewhere. If I went off methadone, i'd end up on heroin again, which I haven't touched for over five years, and hope never to again. Yes, she was also a heroin addict and has also been clean for over five years, but she had the emotional and physical stamina and willpower to get through the pain of withdrawal without methadone. She was always stronger emotionally then I was. I think that was part of the problem, she didn't want to be stronger, she probably wanted me to be the rock, which I can never be.

My life is such a mess I really can't see any way out. I've got so many problems, and now this on top of everything else is proving to be too much to bare. I don't expect any answers, i'm just venting. Sorry to tell my life's story, but eh.... Tweet