Regardless of whether it works out with her or not, you need to learn to deal better with all of your feelings about this .
A great site to visit to learn a simple, and easy techique is
The site is very rich in content ( just like curezone) so I suggest you go to FREE AND ALMOST FREE STUFF and then go to download the EFT manual. EFT works and you can use it to defuse your many feelings of : hurt, betrayal, anger, depression, etc.
Also, are you taking magnesium?? If not, you may be low. Stress burns up magnesium and it sounds like you are way stressed out. Don't you agree?? To learn more on magnesium go to
http://coldcure.com/ and scroll down to the section on Depression and magneium.
Magnesium and daily use of EFT have worked wonders for me as well as thousands of others. If we as humans are suffering, It is often due to lack of knowledge on how to help ourselves. These two sites can provide valuable help.