Re: I just turned 18..

Dearest J,
My heart goes out to you. You have been so strong through this! I, as well, had been emotionally and mentally abused (and physically but not NEARLY to the extent that you have).
It is hard for me to tell you what to do, as you are the one who has the answers within. Obviously you have Angels who are watching over you. You were meant to succeed in this.
I believe that your parents DO love you, but many parents are so wrapped up in their own problems, they do not know HOW to love in a healthy way. One of your biggest challenges is to eventually forgive them, but don't worry about that yet. I'd say try to leave as soon as possible, to get your own sanity back. Then, afterwards, you will be working through the emotional and physical scars that they left on your body and soul. Just remember, nobody can leave a permanent scar on your soul if you let them!
There are many people in this world that care for you. Don't ever give up.
Love & Light,
Heather
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