Re: I just turned 18..

Hello, dear one. I was abused just like you at your age, physically, mentally, and sexually. I am female. I want to encourage you to go for as normal a life as you can. There are things you will need to do in order to become the lady you yearn to be: free of all the fears, the bad feelings about yourself, blame, low self esteem, etc. You are a very worthy person and you can learn that.Follow the example of those of us who have survived and then thrived after such an upbringing.

Firstly, get away from that family as fast as you can. Go to a women's shelter or a friends home or anywhere you can find. I got out of my home at 16 and went to school. Call a social worker and find out where groups of young ladies like yourself meet to talk and help each other. Just get away from them. YEs you love them but you hate what they do to you. Get away from what they DO to you. Realize this: you are damaged. You are damaged sexually, emotionally and physically; even mentally. It is not your fault, but you need help. You will need understanding and good counseling. All of this can be obtained but AFTER you get out of the house.

I went on to become a Professional Nurse Anesthetist, served in the Vietnam war, married a wonderful man, etc. But do not misunderstand: It took a lot of hard work on myself to become the woman I knew I could be. At one time, like you, I had tried to commit suicide. You can do this too!