"i am not perfect and i will not be completely perfect in this lifetime."
Heb 10:14 For by one offering He has perfected for all time those who are sanctified.
Col 2:10 and in Him you have been made complete, and He is the head over all rule and authority;
2Co 5:16 Wherefore henceforth know we no man after the flesh(not even ourselves): yea, though we have known Christ after the flesh, yet now henceforth know we him no more.
Col 3:3 For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.
You are already perfect and complete in Christ, please stop knowing yourself after the flesh that was crucified, died and was burried. See yourself the way The Father sees you. 1Jo 4:17 Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.