That's me...
I know. I'm always trashing my body.. and how awful. The government is doing enough of that, why join their ranks? As 9thbody seemed to put it, it's trying to escape an emotion. Sometimes, I know what the emotions and thoughts are and I know I just don't want to face them. Mostly, I have no clue, but I don't have the willpower to resist though I try and I find myself wanting to cry and smash something.
I think, it just gets to a point of.. 'Why do I want to keep hurting myself?'
http://www.emofree.com
Read the forums, follow along, and talk to me or anyone anytime, please.. it's great to have a friend. Our souls and bodies are hurting, as many of us are, and I'm very proud you are reaching out. Never be afraid to do so, cultivate a love for yourself and help it thrive and grow. I want to start the fasts, too, I want to start so much, but fear holds many back.
Listen to Usher's 'Pop ya Collar'.
I bet it'll help you feel better. :)
I hope you respond, mon amie.
<3
Papillon