Re: How my hell health affects my mental health. Very obsessive..

"I cant get up everytime off a chair without feeling lightheaded or faint. Just normal functions like this."

"I cant get control of my mind on this."

"NO WAY I CAN!"

I struggled to get up out of a chair in March 2005 and was either going to be in a wheel chair, get bi-lateral knee replacements (my knees still hurt something awfull most days and crack and pop like ratchet wrenches), I was on high BP medication, anti-anxiety medication, pre-diabetic being refered out for a liver biopsy (which I have never gotten)... My current employer questioned me about my ability to do the job as she wittnessed me struggle for ten minutes to stand up out of my chair and start walking only to see my knees (yes both of them) go out on me with loud cracks as I fell helpless to the ground hitting the wall hard as I fell. I was ALWAYS in intense pain 24x7.

Today I am going to a martial arts class as a student and will teach if asked, next week I am teaching and learning at a weekend martial arts camp.

As Lapis has said "when you are ready".

grz