You are caught in a feedback loop of your own creation process. How can you break the loop?


~Lapis~

this is an excellent overview of meditation, various techniques and methods.

http://home.att.net/~meditation/MeditationHandbook.html

WOW,,I couldn't have said that better! This is so true, the more negative you
think and talk, the more negative your circumstances become. Kevin, I have a friend
who is like you are, since I can remember (and we've been friends since highschool, which was 30 yrs. ago! :) she was obbssed with her health, every little mole, every little pain, ANYTHING would freak her out and she was sure she was dying! Although
she drove me nuts with this, I also loved her dearly as my friend and felt very
bad for her, she seemed to be "tortured" with this. So, yes, you are in a hard place! But, what I knew about her, and her childhood answered the question as to
why she was like this. She didn't receive much love growing up. She was the oldest of three sisters, and her father drank, and her mom would tell the girls they
were going to hell because they had lied, or that they were her "cross" to bear, ...nice things like that! Her mother died suddenly one day from a brain hemmorage, with her there! Yeah, so from the beginning, rejection and FEAR were
instilled in her. Fear, from thinking she was going to hell, fear, from hearing her father beat her mother at night when he was drunk, fear, from him hitting her and her sisters, etc.......so, as you can see, she was ROOTED in FEAR AND REJECTION.
So, I believe, which I have told her, and she NOW can see that and agrees...is that
this ROOT OF FEAR AND REJECTION from her childhood, MANIFESTED itself as she got into her 20's (and on) as this FEAR of her health, and dying. (remember, she saw her mother go into a convulsion and die), so what I'm trying to say is, there is
usually a reason for this FEAR, for this obbsessiveness. It didn't just come out of nowhere. She was able to get this under control to a large degree, over the years as she began to realize that each one of those fears had never come to pass, and that every pain wasn't someting SERIOUS, .... we also talked and talked (over the years) about her childhood, and the fact that I believed the FEAR (obsession)
of her health, came from that. Years ago, she MENTALLY "agreed" with that, but
it hadn't really become a "revalation" in her spirit yet ... a few yrs. ago, it did.
She finally REALLY understood what I had been saying all along...that it was really
FEAR that was the root cause. Once she really had that "revalation" FOR HERSELF,
she was able to deal with this problem, so now, when she gets a "pain" somewhere, or whatever....she's muc hbetter at handling this. Sure, she'll call me, and ask
me about it, and what do i think.....but she's MUCH MUCH BETTER now, she's handling it normally. She can still become afraid from time to time, but she's come a long way. I hope this can help maybe a little....many times our physical or mental, or emotional problems are really things that are trying to work themselves out in us...things that were never really dealth with or understood, maybe from childhood.

>>NO WAY I CAN!<<

Well now, that pretty much settles it all.

"Whether you believe you can, or whether you believe you can't...you are ABSOLUTELY RIGHT!" Henry Ford

If I may ask, when was the last time you 'took inventory' of the truly GOOD things about your life & body?

You woke up this morning! You are NOT riddled with horrendous crippling disease! You have enough money and time to have a computer and use it regularly! You have your WHOLE LIFE IN FRONT OF YOU! You can heal yourself from ANYTHING at your age! You have an education and you can read & write! You are free to learn without fear of imprisonment or torture! etc, Etc, ETC!!

You will NEVER attain positive health and a positive mental state by constantly focusing upon the negative aspects of your health, life and mental attitude. We ALL have negative aspects to our health, mind, and spirit...we are HUMAN!

Every single member of "Team CureZone" could write similar posts to yours the last few weeks...but instead, we focus upon the good, solid truth - that the goodness of our health and being FAR outweigh the negative.

If you'd spent as much time eating good foods, cleansing your colon and flushing your liver...as you've spent telling us all about your negative life & world, you'd already be rid of a large percentage of your problems.

>>I cant get up everytime off a chair without feeling lightheaded or faint. Just normal functions like this..<<

How about thanking God that you CAN get off your chair...there are those trying to help you that CANNOT do that!!

>>Cant enjoy a nice hot shower because if I have a bowel movement before my shower or eat something before my shower,I feel worse in my stomach during my shower and after.<<

I used to work at a Hospice, and I helped bathe people who couldn't bathe themselves. Compare your 'shower situation' to this: how about you were 42 years old, female, with 4 children and no husband, and you had cancer tumors popping out of you so large and excrutiatingly painful that you couldn't wipe your own butt, transport yourself to a toilet, or even get into a shower? That two people would have to lift you (while you were screaming because of the pressure/pain from touching the tumors) into a foam mattress filled bathtub, just so you could wash the stench of the toxins from your body so that you could bear to eat?

Life is tough...get a helmet & join the rest of us!!

Unyquity

You will never get well, never gain the discipline to cleanse and detox, never accomplish anything until you change your attitude. You will not be perfect all the time, no one is, but you must believe things can get better or they never will. When I get out of a chair I often scream out in pain, sometimes I fall, sometimes I can't get up at all. But, sometimes I can and even take a few steps on my own. Those are the times I remember and celebrate.
I have much more to say, but must work today. Either you believe in natural healing and commit your self to using methods that will allow your body to become self healing, or you put your faith (and fate) in the hands of allopathic medicine and allow them to mask your symptoms with drugs and try to resolve the problem with surgery. Its your choice, but I would do everything I know to do to heal myself or at least get as healthy as possible before allowing myself to be cut and drugged. No one here can cure you, its all in your hands and attitude.

"I cant get up everytime off a chair without feeling lightheaded or faint. Just normal functions like this."

"I cant get control of my mind on this."

"NO WAY I CAN!"

I struggled to get up out of a chair in March 2005 and was either going to be in a wheel chair, get bi-lateral knee replacements (my knees still hurt something awfull most days and crack and pop like ratchet wrenches), I was on high BP medication, anti-anxiety medication, pre-diabetic being refered out for a liver biopsy (which I have never gotten)... My current employer questioned me about my ability to do the job as she wittnessed me struggle for ten minutes to stand up out of my chair and start walking only to see my knees (yes both of them) go out on me with loud cracks as I fell helpless to the ground hitting the wall hard as I fell. I was ALWAYS in intense pain 24x7.

Today I am going to a martial arts class as a student and will teach if asked, next week I am teaching and learning at a weekend martial arts camp.

As Lapis has said "when you are ready".

grz

Kevin, this is crystal again, I know how bad this is, I was there when my friend would go through the same stuff, I'm certainly no expert on this at all, I wish I
had an answer for you .. I know it's impossible to FORCE your mind to think of other
thoughts because this feeling inside you is very strong, and to be honest here, I don't blame you for thinking there is something wrong in your stomach, I'd probably
be thinking the same thing if I were you. But, let me ask you, is this type of scenario something that happens to you on a regular basis? What I mean is, do you
frequently have these "episodes" where you think something is SERIOUSLY wrong with you? (due to certain symptoms)..or is this new? I think what people tend to think, and I remember this with my friend, is that, you are imagining all this due to your fears,..now,sometimes that is true, BUT sometimes it ISN'T! Can you tell when it's your fear, and when there IS something wrong? I can remember when my girlfriend would honestly believe there was something wrong, because she'd have all the symptoms for whatever she thought it was...she'd run to her dr. and find out it was
"nothing", so, I'm just wondering here if that could be it too. I'm in no way
saying you're imagining this! Whatever it is, I will keep you in my prayers Kevin!