Hi Canibor - I liked your post becuase it was so honest and real. And so like many of us who have suffered with Depression - Don't forget there is one other, preeminent reason to live: to know God. He has you here for a reason and you can trust Him - look for what He is trying to show you. Start with the words of Jesus, "I am the way, the truth and the life" (John 14:6) Look at all Jesus said He is for you and me: The way, the truth and the life!! Wow! We can know God, Canibor. It is true.:)
Love,
Joan