You're welcome. When you call the RAINN hotline, ask about getting some counseling. They can help you with that.
It's good that you are aware of what your mother did to you. So many people don't have that awareness and repeat the patterns with their own children. Having awareness is the most important step when it comes to breaking the cycle.
My own mother was an alcoholic and a narcissist who was verbally abusive. I worked hard to treat my own child better than I was treated. My mother had a father who was not only verbally abusive but physically abusive as he gave his children regular beatings with the belt. Yet my mother was not aware that she was treating her own children in a similar fashion. When it came to my child, I vowed to myself that I would break the cycle once and for all.
Best of luck to you. I'm so glad to hear that you are doing better by your own children!