Re: when a dental infection has gone too far...

dear effie~

(SUPER LONG post warning, it's okay if u dont want to read it!)

...i was told at maybe (age) 22 that all the wisdom teeth that i have (i seem to have been born without some), were fully errupted -
and that i actually was born without a few wisdom teeth...on an xray there is nothing where a few of the wisdom teeth are supposed to be, and the dentist was asking me if i'd had them pulled (which i haven't, i am certain!) and kind of didnt believe me and was kind of making me feel like a freak because i just dont have a few of my wisdom teeth! ('nother example why i dont want to go to a dentist! [but i also cant go to a dentist, because of a situation im in])

and unfortunately for me, since i last posted, my situation has gotten worse...
i dont feel like my TEETH hurt, but what i've had is that lump behind my wisdom tooth, and some kind of burning, and, now.........

(i need to give some background, in hopes maybe someone reads this and has an idea what might be going on...)

seemingly, i thought for years, unrelated, i've suffered with (a) canker sores on my lower lip and inner cheek (the other side, not the side where my teeth are)

...and, i did realize that sometimes, what i've thought have been canker sores, may have (this is only sometimes) been abscesses, because they were so low down on the inside of my lower lip, they may have been more like, at the base of a tooth root, so i may also have decay or gum disease going on, causing abscesses...

i ALSO (b) have always felt the inside of my lower lip (and sometimes the inside of my cheek, and one spot - the same spot always) "puffy" and kind of STINGING ...and, i noticed for the lower lip that if i get chapped lips and peel them (sorry, i know its gross), i will feel, under the skin and not at the surface, like there's a little bubble that floats to near the surface of my INNER lip...
and,
recently i found that these might be "mucoceles" - where one/some of the 600-1000 tiny salivary glands we have around our inner cheeks and lips, get traumatized and sometimes fills up (and when i read that, it made so much sense!)

and LASTLY (c), i have a history of clenching (not known grinding, but clenching) my teeth and - i thought - the teeth at one side of my mouth were usually closing on the inside of that cheek and, it made these kind of "ridges" (i thought, maybe scar tissue)
...........and i even went to a TMJ specialist/dentist, another guy, who was SO ARROGANT and acted like it was no big deal ................well that brings me to my current problem:

the "ridges"/whole inside of my cheek keep swelling up and burning!!! (and i think that might be causing or contributing to the lump behind my last tooth - come to think of it, i read that there is a main salivary gland that empties at that area and maybe it, or it along with some ones in my cheek, are blocked!!!)

...it is really severe today...

i have no way that i can go to a dentist because ...definitely money is a problem, but i consider it the lesser of all the problems...i am extremely scared of dentists themselves (not pain) because i've been to so many and they've all been so arrogant and JUDGMENTAL, and i am also (i have a social phobia) of the invasiveness of the exam ..............and i have no way to get to a dentist, i am rather home bound :(

IF anyone who reads this, happens to have a dentist they go to, who is relatively kind, in the NEW YORK (5 boroughs) area, can you please PM me?
then i have to work on the money and GETTING THERE and phobia...i wish i had someone to go with me......

anyway, i better go do my whole mouth care routine - and this time stuff some tea bags in my mouth to try to get this swelling down, even though its only temporary :( Tweet