Re: Taking a Leap of Faith and...

Your commitment to the practice of meditation is great and your discoveries are a part of that practice.

What you are dealing with is the body/spirit dichotomy.  We often think what we want in life are in fact what our body wants.  We are each an eternal spirit taking up temporary residence in our body to learn while here on Planet Earth.  We as spirit have all of our answers within ourselves.  When we look outside of ourselves for direction or answers we can get into trouble.  When you say that you were "shown" a date and "was to travel" (you don't indicate the source but am assuming that it was a similar source) to a specific place.  What has happened is that if this was provided to you by a being without a body (all beings without bodies are just that - they are like folks we meet on the planet, some you'd like to have as friends, some not) you believed what you were shown.   There are many, many out of body entities who are simply game players that like to trip us up and cause us problems.  My perception is that's what you have run into.  The out of body game players are afraid to take a body and are trying to disrupt the spiritual experiences of those who do.  They do this because they are in fear of taking a body and are trying to disrupt what's happening here on Earth.

You as spirit have a specific purpose for being in a body on the Planet.  You can discover what that purpose is by listening to your Inner Voice, that voice from inside yourself that when you hear it - sounds like your voice and no one else's.  If you ask yourself a question and your receive and answer from your Inner Voice, then that's your information.  If you ask a question from anyone or anything outside of yourself, question the response thoroughly before even believing it.  

We are here to learn what our own information is and to operate on that information.  We all have our answers to all our difficulties inside of ourselves.  One thing about that is that we may not like the answers and that can sometimes lead to frustration which is body trying to take control - or, someone else trying to tell us what to do.  When we feel that frustration it's a time to sit down and meditate until we've released the frustration and found our own direction.  By your practice of meditation you are raising your spiritual vibration.  It is a process.  It takes time.  Sometimes it is has its moments of discouragement as you have learned but don't let it block you from your journey of self discovery.  These lessons are never ending as long as we have a body.