Honestly? Love.. attention... friends... children of my own... health, beauty... I wanted to "BE somebody".. you know, someone important that would make a mark on the world... and no one even knows me.. I'm a complete no body.. .my life will never be special, or extraordinary.. Everyone always told me I was "destined for greatness". I'm very smart, and I do have talents.. but, unfortunately, I don't have the looks to match, and I'm not free to pursue anything, as I'm tied down in a loveless marriage that for private reasons, I can't get out of... and I will be the last in my "line", and my aging parents desperately need me to be their support system... so, I'm stuck..