... or, could it be possible that my expectations are tooo great for my life? maybe I'm expecting something out of life that just ain't going to happen... maybe I just need to accept that my life will never be the one I dreamed of... "this isn't what I wanted, but this is what I got.." sort of thing.. I mean, yes.. my life has not met my expectations... I haven't gotten a single thing I dreamed of..and I'm too old to get them now...