Re: Stressed about seeing my sexual abuser, PLEASE HELP

I don't know. I agree with you and I know my family and grandparents love me, but my grandparents also love him. but my grandma is stubborn, and I'm sure she wouldn't want to believe that she raised a son that would do this or that she missed seeing it in her own house. I also just don't want to have to deal with it, I'm sick of it. I'll probably just miss Christmas because I am too wussy to deal with this anymore. As for my mom, I know she just felt guilty for not watching me closely, but didn't want to admit it so she blamed me. She did talk to my uncle, and tell him off, which is actually what makes it the worst at this moment if I were to see him.
But I have another problem, I feel like I don't trust men. I hate watching my brothers grow up, and I hate watching them with their girlfriends, it makes me sick. I have a real problem. I can't have a real relationship because I secretly despise the person I am dating if they try to touch me or kiss me when I don't want them to. oh well I guess that's something I'll have to figure out. I just need a better counselor.

Thank you all for all your support and time you've taken to help me. I really appreciate it. Tweet