Systemic, yep most most likely. And many years I did not know about it. It all started with birth control pills which messed with my hormones and my mood, I was a angry, crying, depressed, worried and a stressed person, all this burned me out. A crappy diet and crappy relationship on top of that and my body just died inside. So many years.
Time to clear it out, step by step. I need Tarzan (!) to guide me in this jungle,