Day 17

I wanna quit

Date:   7/12/2006 11:39:37 AM   ( 18 y ) ... viewed 3062 times

It's only 11:30, and this day is not going well. I just can't stand to drink another thing. I don't want to drink at all. I'm forcing water down my throat, and I'm gagging on it. I want real, honest-to-goodness FOOD. Juices are all disgusting. Just the smell... yech. This is probably all because I ate a little bit of bread yesterday. Bread I didn't want to eat, but ate because I wanted to be social and it seemed to satisfy everyone else at the table. It stopped the nagging. But now I want more. A lot more. I don't want to give up because I still can't fit into my favorite jeans... but I'm close! But it's getting to the point where I feel like I'm not living any more. Every hour is just another hour to endure, and I'm going to bed at 8PM just because I can't stand to be awake and hungry anymore. I'm cranky, and I don't want any more juice!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is obviously the worst time for me to quit, because I'm not really in control and will likely make myself really sick. I'll probably binge and my poor tummy won't know what happened and the next thing you know I'm bent over a toilet somewhere... crying. I really want this day and all the other days between now and July 26 to just be over and done with so I can live like a human being again.

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