I have always wanted to get into that, I even have really good binoculars. I have never heard of any birdwatching clubs around here, but will look online, it sure sounds like something I would love to be involved in.
I think Zoe uncovered in me something that has been going on that I didn't realize, and that is "fear of abandonment" I think I need to get a hold of this, and somehow release this so I don't set myself up for failure yet again.