How can you believe in AA if you dont believe in God.

I know that this is going to open up a can of worms. This is my first post but have lurked here for a while knowing that I need help. I just have trouble believing in this fairy tale called religion. I was raised in a very religous family and believe myself to be well educated. The very fact that the religous right disputes evolution caused me to start having doubts.

Anyway my purpose for posting is not to debate religion but to find the best solution to my problem and that is I can't stop drinking. I consider myself to be in really good shape except for probably my liver. The last 4 years I have been taking good care of myself. Eating better, riding my bike to work, doing yoga twice a week and generally excercising more. All the while I have been a heavy drinker and pot smoker. I grew up in Germany and learned to drink fairly early. I am a big guy and have always been able to pound beers. Went through college and fraternity and my identity just bloomed. I was the party guy and still think I am. However, I am married and have two kids that are being affected by my drinking. My life has changed but I haven't.

This is the first time that I have asked for help. Like many I think that I am looking for the silver bullet or a pill or a cleanse that will get me back on track. Like an earlier post I read that I associate everything with drinking. If I am feeling positive I drink. Negative I drink. I am scared to stop. I am scared at people viewing me as weak. Internally I also think that part of my doubts about religion also stem from the idea of being weak. Having to rely on someone else to solve your problems etc...

I probably need more help than what I will receive here but thought I would try this first to try to cut back on my drinking with some kind of process or cleanse or strategy.

Sorry for the rant. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks Tweet