we each must find our own path back to the garden. what you say is obvious to me, so we all do the best we can. the problem i had until i came to these conclusions was exactly what i was aiming for. if you cant see the ideal, you cant figure out how to get there.
i feel like i have all the time in the world. the only thing i have vowed to myself to do is to make some progress every day and not to go backwards. otherwise, i am free to experiment or explore a desire if i want. but i refuse to get stuck anywhere. and isnt that the definition of life? living things change. dead things dont. just look at the moon. it is dead and nothing stirs there, no changes of itself occur.